"Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to the echoes of our hearts. We all fall in love and there are times when we love so much that we lose ourselves in our emotions. More often than not, we wonder why there are love that grows, and love that grows cold. We would start to search for answers and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end, we find ourselves where we started for we cannot question love when it has its own reasons. Love will always be as it always has been....silent, mysterious and deeply profound.

Many of us believe that love is forever, that love never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end when we find our hands empty and our hearts longing. We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled. But love is a gift given to us. We should not hold it in our hands for we may never find the strength to let it go when it decides to leave. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it last and then freely open our arms when its time to say good-bye.

When we fall in love, we don't want that feeling to end for it is everything we are, everything we wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts. But if it doesn't then we should never let our lives be taken by it, for life should not end where heartaches begin.

There is always a reason why we have to move on. When we have to say good-bye to the feeling we wanted to stay forever, let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart. For love will have to set its wings free and find the place where it belongs. We may have lost it but then again, when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever.

Then we'll know that love never left us, for the good that we have become because of love will always stay. Love will always be there, reminding us that we should be thankful and happy not because we have lost love, but because, for once in our lives, that feeling called love lived in our hearts and made us happy."

  • Pampalubag-loob sa mga taong sawi! (I'm one of them!)

When i realized i am a geisha, all i wished for is for me to find a person who will love me, care for me and understand me for who i am not for what i have! I fervently prayed to papa jesus na sana bibigyan 'nya ako ng taong magpapalambot ng aking manhid na puso!Besides, sawa na 'ko sa mga boardinghouse invasion 'nung college years. May all-male school kasi malapit sa aming university, at 'yun ang dinadayo namin pag kumakati ang ingrone namin sa 'lam mo na 'yan!!! Sawa na rin ako sa mga flirt na 'yan lalo na sa mga pa cute cute na epek epek! Kung bakit pa kasi sa lahat ng jobs di pwedeng ialagay sa resume and "blow job" sana automatic tanggap ako sa trabaho! Kakainis! Di man lang yun nakalagay sa qualifications. Over-qualified pa naman sana ako :(

  • And so i prayed to papa Jesus!

Though overly loved (by my family of course), i never get a chance to share my emotions in an open space. Isolated kasi 'sya. Hanggang thought at actions lang at restricted pa para di magiging redundant!

  • At napatunayan ko na "god is soo good" (all the time!)

I'm not a regular church goer and is now becoming agnostic. Pero sa lahat ng prayers ko after all these years, binigay naman. Inisip ko nga, sana in a right time and in the right place. He gave me Oliver. But it didn't work. Masyado 'syang obsessed sa physical attributes ko. Had i known na manggagamit 'sya, sana ginamit ko na rin 'sya ng ginamit hanggang sa masira ulo 'nya. Then came Gary at the right time and place. Pero hindi rin nagwork. Had i known na isa 'syang mapagpanggap sana pinaninindigan ko na lang ang masama kong side towards sa kanya. Nagbabait-baitan kasi kaya i gave him kindness in return ayun nahulog sa balong walang tubig!

Now that everyone's gone, i realized enough na muna ang mga sexperience na 'yun at mga memories. Those will surely make me smart if not stupid pagdating sa pag-ibig. Kaya lang its better said than done. And now came Alwyn. I dunno yet if everything will work out well. He had been calling me since October and tommorrow will be the judgement day. He loves me, he loves me not ang drama bukas.

  • Either way, mas masarap pa rin umibig, umibig ng umibig hanggang masaktan!

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